Matthew Lunders' "Disappointment (Eleison)" Comes Out of the Loss of Two Children

Worship leader and songwriter Matthew Lunders has released his new single via Homegrown Worship. "Disappointment (Eleison)" comes out of a period of heart break and healing.

Lunders writes: "During my wife's first pregnancy, she had a miscarriage. We were heartbroken. When we found out she was pregnant again - this time with twins! - we felt that in some way God had restored the child we lost. But not long after, one of the twins' hearts stopped. We kept praying for a miracle, but the heartbeat never returned. Every check-up was another disappointment.

This song came out of that period of questioning, hoping, and mourning. I still don't know why we lost two children. There's no silver lining that erases what happened.

The end of the cosmic story will be good, with God bringing an ending to sad endings for His people. But I'm not there yet. There are tears waiting to be wiped away. I'm learning to trust God and lament at the same time. Some of my songs are still stuck at sad endings." 

Matthew Lunders was exposed to Jesus and to performing music almost as soon as he had memories, but neither really clicked for him until the age of 15. After finally saying "Yes" to Jesus at a church youth meeting, he started picking up his older brother's acoustic guitar to strum worship songs at home. He soon upgraded to his own electric guitar - with no amplifier - so he could play as loud as he wanted without bothering anyone in the house. Before long, Matthew started putting new music to Psalms, and eventually writing his own lyrics.

God has taken both Matthew Lunders and his music a long way since he sat as a teenager in his bedroom with an old-school tape recorder, trying to get his songs on cassettes. His missions travels in the Caribbean, Africa, and Asia have all influenced his approach to congregational music. For the last decade, Matthew has been working on church staff in the Netherlands. His focus in songwriting is crafting tunes that connect with God's vision for the local church.

Along with having support from his church family, Matthew also gets great encouragement from his wife and two boys. 

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